Just a post..

This week was a great one.. and a very tiring one as well. Monday was super busy at the salon and half way through I lost my lunch right in the middle of an appt..... good thing my clients loved me. It was a 12 hour work day and I had to cut it down to an 8 hour day due to continually loosing control of my stomach.. it was not fun or attractive in any sort of way. The next morning which was Tuesday, I packed up myself and the kids and took a road trip to a condo in Jackson Hole, Wy. It was strictly for the children because, call me crazy but.. a 4 hour drive with 3 kids and one me, is not exactly my idea of a relaxing get away. We went out to the Elk Refuges and came across not only a crap load of amazing elk but also some Big Horned Sheep and Antelope, Bald Eagles and a Coyote. We took a trip to the Wildlife Museum and to my surprise, the kids absolutely LOVED it! Being a famous artists daughter, I don't remember getting drug through the zillions of museums all over the world and truly enjoying one of them. I saw many famous pieces like the ones we studied in school. The Mona Lisa was not so cool at the time I saw it, I think I was about 15. Now, Id give anything to go back to all the amazing museums in Paris and London, New York and all over the world that I have already visited.. I just want to visit them at the age of 30 and appreciate them for what they are now that Im an adult. I was one Lucky and Privileged Child to have parents that sacrificed for me to be able have those experiences. After we got home from Jackson Hole I had a very long day of work on Friday 9am-11pm.. had to make up for lost work days. Dave took the kids for the weekend so I worked at the coffee shop, which I love to do. Had a ground breaking celebration and my Spa to be.. we slammed in walls with pink sledge hammers, decked out in pink hard hats and goggles and munched on goodies and drinks.. it was a very special event for me. I got to cut Pink ribbon and celebrate my hard work amongst loved ones and friends! I have the best people surrounding me in my life helping me create my dream.. I am a very lucky girl once again. I feel like I have been through hell and back recently and its about time I feel like my hard work and tears from painful losses are finally finding a happy ending. My goal is to make it a successful salon in midway and merge to a fabulous Glitter toe shack on a crowded beach in California.. just saying! Its a perfect dream, why not?! Later I was invited to my friends bday party at the Flying Sumo in Park City, where I spotted Christina Applegate and enjoyed an amazing dinner full of sushi and great old and new friends! Sunday I woke up late.. turned on a movie and snuggled with my doggy on the couch and took a nap. Got to pick up my loves aka Duncan, Lily and London and head to my moms for a family dinner.. could the weekend get better. I love my ever growing happy life. It is occasionally doomed with tears and my heart literally hurts at times.. I miss hearing Nicks voice! I miss my complete family, I am heartbroken in so many ways still, it takes time to find peace with it all but Im working on it and I am now at a place were Im having way more happy days than sad days.. right now it is more than I could ask for. I am trying really hard to keep a relationship together with the sweetest man on the planet but I am concerned I am still not ready and am not looking forward to hurting anyone or feeling hurt.. unfortunately that is the life of dating. I hope I can get over my deeply engrained issues and make something good of something special.. any ideas or words of advice please??!!! I am grateful for my blessings.. I need to live my life in a way that it shows God that I appreciate his hand in it all because I would be a fool to think I've done it on my own.. there are times more than not that I am sure there is only one set of footprints in the sand.